Lathosphobia

Lathosphobia

Lathosphobia

When I was a child, I feared the darkness
Open doorways and shadowed compartments
The monsters and witches of nightmares can but
Touch the fears that now grip my heart, I’m
Choked by futures I’ve invited in folly
Drowning in a past riddled with flaws
I’m paralysed by every mistake
My faults are now my phobia

I don’t fear the ground crumbling, or a blood-red sky,
I don’t fear the needle, or the blood, or the night
I don’t fear what I should, the hurtling cars or risk of frostbite
I fear myself, what I would do if I controlled my life
I fear my missteps will lead me to terrifying troughs
I fear the carelessness that’s lost me many a night
I fear the foolish choices and arrogance yet preserved
I fear the devil in me, I hope it’ll go away once it’s bright
It doesn’t go away in the light
It doesn’t go away once it’s bright
I plead it to leave, it doesn’t reply
I’m scared of the devil inside

There’s no one else, I am the devil inside